This Monday

Monday, January 5, 2015

Remember how I talked about right when you think you're getting it figured out and into a routine then everything changes..? Today is another day of change for us - Homegirl starts daycare. 
I said I'd be back asking for your support and encouragement, so here I am. Pour it on..
There are parts that are a little little easier the second time around - I know exactly how wonderful our child care provider is, I love that brother and sister will be together, and she'll get more attention then I feel I provide while also trying to work (damn mom-guilt, I can't win..!!). But, as all moms who have done this know, it's heart-wrenching. Lump-in-your-throat-fight-back-tears-heart-wrenching. This precious and sweet little girl has been with me all day. every. single. day. of. her. life. It's hard to imagine now she won't be.
Having her in the office with me these last few weeks has been such a joy. She lights up a room, as you can see. I work in a office with mostly men, and let's just say, she had them at her beck and call!! They all loved coming in to say hi each day and making her smile.  
 All the things I've told other moms going through this same thing whirl around in my head - 'You can do it! It gets easier! Makes time together THAT much more special!' Comforting, but at the same time makes the lump in my throat that much bigger and the tears welling up in my eyes that much harder to see through.

At the end of the day, having our kids in daycare has been a great experience and a good choice for our family. Although I am quite sad she won't be with me all day, I pray that it continues to be a positive in our life. 

Thanks in advance for your support. I'll be sitting at my desk fighting back tears this Monday.

6 comments:

  1. Oh girl I have you and your family in my thoughts. I can not imagine sending my little one to daycare this early, it must just be heart wrenching. You're doing what's best for your family though and there is absolutely no reason to feel guilty about that. Plus she gets to spend the day with big brother :) Good luck xoxox

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    1. Thanks Tawnya - yes, there is something comforting about her brother being there with her and obviously knowing our care provider, compared to the first time around. I know she'll do great, just as her big brother did. Thanks for the support!! :)

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  2. I feel your pain mama! Even though I stopped going to feed Pake at lunch a couple months ago I still find myself "visiting" a few times a week. That smile when they see you at the end of the day makes it all worth it! Hang in there!!

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    1. I always describe picking them up as Christmas morning!! Hearing T holler 'mommmmmaaa!!' is the best and not much else can beat those sweet little smiles. Thanks for the support!! :)

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  3. Oh, friend!!! I'm so sorry! Thinking of you all day and hoping it is going well! I still remember the first day I dropped off Mason at daycare... I knew he was in good hands, but not being with him ripped my heart out. So great that she will be with Tyson, you know he will take good care of her and look after her! Hopefully your daycare provider can take pictures and send them to you, that is what helped me get through my first couple days (heck, first couple months!) of being back at work. Hope, hope, hope you have a great day!!! xo

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    1. Did I mention I had to take her to her two month appt this morning and she got her shots...!!! Waaaahhhh!! :) It was a loooong day by 11am. Haha, thankfully she's such a great baby and goes with the flow so she was just fine. Girl, that is AWESOME that you'd get pictures of Mason throughout the day - let's just say our care provider is 100x better with kids than technology so no texting going on here. :( I've already told Dan we need to buy her a smart phone and teach her how to send us pics!! Haha. Thankfully my phone is FULL of pictures, as you can imagine, and I definitely look at them when we're apart. Dang kids, turn me into a big 'ol pile of mush. Thanks for the support!! xo :)

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